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Dear 2016, you saved my life

This has definitely been the year that would put hair on your chest. I’m not going to lie, there have been bits of it that I’d really rather not remember. But, I made it. We all did, and we should be thankful.

I don’t think that open letters are still a thing, and if they are they should be stopped now. But I do know that despite my better judgement, I am thankful for the trials and tribulations that 2016 sent my way. It’s been one helluva year that has taken it’s toll on a lot of people in my life, so if you’re reading this because you’re recovering from 2016 too, I get it. I feel you.

I understand the terror in your eyes when you realize that there is still a month left of this year. I totally get the shell-shocked rocking that you’re doing in peak hour traffic on William Nicol.

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I’m going to be really real with you, 2016 nearly killed me. I’m actually not even including that for dramatic effect this time. I legitimately nearly ended it all this year. It started off simple enough – the stress induced depression – but I didn’t attend to it sooner.I found myself sobbing uncontrollably in an empty bath on two occasions this year. I’m not even entirely sure why I go to the bath for comfort (or why I don’t actually run a bath), but who understands depression anyway? It was this whole damn year that did that to me. It’s been the worst of the lot, and I’ve been alive for 31 years already, I’ve seen my share of shitty years.

But, I am weirdly thankful that this year has been so hard to deal with. I’m oddly grateful that I’ve been able to weather the storm that was 2016 and you should be too.

Before you ask if I should up my meds, hear me out. To have survived a year like this takes ball, guts, gumption, call it what you like – but it takes a whole lot of muchness to have made it… and we have.

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This year has been really difficult in some places, but it has also been amazing for so many people. I’ve struggled with my weight this year, but I’ve also realized that I know what my problem is – I self-sabotage. I’m writing this from bed, the final straw for me this year is that I am physically incapable of being upright anymore. I managed to pick up some form of viral muscular thing that happens during severe stress, when your body is fatigued or all of the above. I think that’s basically 2016 in a nutshell, right?

So, as I think back on the awful times that I had this year, I also need to remember the amazing support that I have. I remember that through it all, I have a circle of friends who always have my back. I know that I have a fiance and son who are always here for me, and who have been here through the darkest of my days. While it has been a testy year, I am so thankful that I survived it, because it proved that I am so damn strong and you are too.

There are so many lessons that we can and absolutely need to learn about this year. When we look back on the hard times that 2016 gave us, we absolutely need to remember that we grew from it. I know it’s easier said than done, but we have all done so much more in our lives and have so much more to give (and experience).

So, to 2016 I say thank you for being the year that taught me to be as tough as nails. Thank you for teaching me how to save myself and for being the year that make me realize my worth. Be thankful for the challenges in your life, there is no such thing as smooth sailing and challenges like 2016 show us how easily we adapt to weathering the storm.

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Until next time.

Xx

cashe

 

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1 thought on “Dear 2016, you saved my life”

  1. ❤ You are such an amazing being! Love that you are always transparent and honest, that is beautiful and true. Especially since it gives comfort to those who can relate. 2016 was shit,but it's almost over and makes way for a glorious 2017 full of new adventures. xx

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